Usually I eat lunch in my teacher's classroom because she does, too. Today, I took my lunch to the teacher's lounge to see if I was missing anything (and because my teacher usually makes me do work during my lunch break). There were three other teachers there and while I ate with them, I realized that being a student teacher can be lonely.
Some teachers smile and say hi, but there are some that ignore my existence even when I greet them. I'm no stranger to the staff, either- I was introduced to them several times and I have been present at all school meetings/training. I can't really blame the others for not starting up conversations, what would they have to say to me? I can admit that although I'm lonely, it's nice to not answer the same questions each time I meet a new person (where are you from, which school do you go to, wow they let you student teach out of state?, etc.).
I'm the only student teacher at my school so when I received the staff list during training, I was excited to see that another teacher had a student intern. Unfortunately, that other intern is non-existent at this point because I have never seen anyone with the teacher the student was listed with. I thought we'd be able to bond over the complications our programs presented, or, laugh about our experiences fumbling through lessons... If only, if only.
When I go home I complain or celebrate about my daily experience in the classroom, but since there is no one to trade stories with it's not as satisfying because I want reassurance that someone else is going what I'm going through! Especially because I've started disliking my placement because I know I'm not a good fit with my current teacher... Oh well, I'll go cry a river later, I guess!
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